I'm in my mid forties and feel like I am going through a crisis? Cliche...right? Although if I were a guy...people would say I did the midlife crisis thingy in my thirties...post divorce. Now I want quiet. Peace. Tranquility...with a bit of fire!

I have three beautiful daughters. Two out of the nest and one in her junior year of high school. The idea of having an empty nest isn't as appealing as I thought it would be. I love my kids. Its wierd not being a constant part of their lives after they move out. Now its an occasional phone call or family dinner.

I am excited to add though, that I am to start planning a wedding for my middle child. Summer of 2011 and couldn't be happier! I love the guy that she has chosen...oh and they do have a child together already...but hey...what century do we live in after all. As a parent we all would like the "traditional" upbringing as society would have, but life is just life. I like to embrace each lesson and event with open arms!

I have been in a relationship for 6 months...of which the last 4 months of it have been spiraling downward. Disappointed? Yes. Frustrated? Hell Yes! At a point of feeling incredibly trapped for many self induced reasons and shamed to admit, that I know better. He's not a horrible person. It has just become suffocating. I think of the many years I've been divorced and dating and have had a few committed relationships that maybe...I'm just not relationship material. I love my space...and its being invaded and I'm not liking that so much. But maybe thats for a later blog.

I've got to admit. I have no idea of how to write a blog. When I googled it...it talks of people "venting." So okay...what do I vent about? I always have tons! But who doesn't? I've never even read a blog. Horrible to admit...because I hope people will be reading mine. And I am looking forward to connecting with others in this "blog world."

So what do I expect to get out of this? Not sure. I hope to share stories, daily adventures, happy thoughts and dreams, crappy days...etc. Hopefully there are readers out there with similiar scenarios. People that can relate. So I will share...and tell...and vent. BTW...how the heck do you find other blogs to read on this thing?

faithfully now blogging,
Cyndi